Momma Needs A Break, Too

Jason has been gone from 2:30pm until 1am every night this week.  With Elise being so fussy, an extra hand is always appreciated, but it's just been me and her.  I feed her, bathe her, play with her, hold her, soothe her, etc. and once she finally goes to bed all I want to do is sit on the couch and watch all my shows I have DVR'd.  I should be unloading the dishwasher, making myself something to eat, folding clothes, starting more laundry, playing with my dogs that never get attention anymore, or even.... shredding, but finally it's time to myself.

When he's home in the evenings, I can at least get him to hold her while I do stuff around the house or help me with dinner or cleaning up.  But I'm still on the clock after all that with bath time, lotion, jammies, feeding, and getting ready for bed.  Thank God I don't have a job outside the home, because I don't know how I would manage doing all that and still have my house standing.

I would do anything to be able to have an afternoon or evening just for myself.  Especially after a particular hard week like this week.  I think it should be required, actually.  Without having any time to myself, my nerves are shot.  I need to recharge myself. 

They say being at stay at home mom is the hardest job.  It is giving all of yourself to your child.  There isn't anyone around to tell you that you're doing a good job or keep up the hard work.  But also, you can't really say it's a "job."  You can quit a job, you can clock out or take the day off.  You can never quit being a mom or take time off.  It's a lifetime responsibility, but sometimes during all the chaos and commotion of everyday life, mom's deserve to take time for themselves.  To take the time to remember the person they were before they threw every once of their being into motherhood.