Update On Returning To Work

I previously posted about possibly returning to work part-time.  I was able to get in touch with a lady that would be able to keep Elise, so Jason and I set up a time to go to her house to visit with her.  The last time Jason and I went to meet a potential baby sitter I had an emotional break down in her drive way after we were done visiting with her.  I'm sure it was in part, due to the crazy postpartum hormones, but the other part was anxiety over leaving my brand new baby.  So, this time I knew would be different.  It was only part-time and she was older.

We went and met Darcie.  She has a 4 year old and an almost 3 year old.  She doesn't keep many other kids, just a couple a few days a week.  She has a large, clean home and informed me she's a big fan of Lysol... music to my ears since I'm borderline OCD with germs.  Everything was going great, I wasn't having an overflow of emotions until.....................................

Jason told her and her friend (who happened to stop by the same time we did) that I had never left Elise anywhere and that she has been by my side for the past 10 months.  Then the tears start flowing...  They both said it was ok because they could relate and understood how hard it would be to leave her for the first time. 

We left her house with the plan of me bringing Elise over today for me to start back to work.  We were driving down the road, and I didn't break down and start bawling and pleading with Jason to not make me leave her.  Everything seemed on the up and up.  I was comfortable with leaving her with Darcie, Elise would get some interaction with other kids, and I'd be making a little extra money. 

I went by the doctor's office to talk to her about what I had found out.  She had wanted to know what I came up with about 5 days prior to, so I was in kind of a time crunch.  I did my best to find a sitter asap so that I could help them out by coming back to work.  She told me she would have to call me.  So I waited 2 days before I heard anything from her.  When she finally did call, she informed me that the girl who had taken my place had some issues going on.  I guess they were planning on letting her go and bringing me on to share the job with the other part-time girl.  Then she said they were going to give her another chance and wouldn't be needing me after all.  Then she went on to say she didn't know how long that would last and she might be getting in touch with me again soon.  Needless to say, I wasn't very happy after I had gone through all the trouble to do them a favor. 

So, I won't be going back to work.... at least not there anyway.