My Little Darlin Is A Firecracker

If you ever watch Bethany Getting Married or Bethany Ever After on the Bravo network, you know that she is a neurotic control freak.  She says anything she wants and makes no excuses for her opinions.  I have seen a few similarities between her and myself.  Not the same in the sense that she's a successful business woman building a "Bethany Empire", but that we are both neurotic, opinionated control freaks.  I'm pretty much an open book.  I say what's on my mind, express my opinions whether good or bad, and don't worry too much (but a little) if people don't like it.  I have tried to be a little more sensitive since my kind husband has been teaching me his ways.  I have told him a couple of times, three to be exact, that "I'm going to turn my life around."  I'm not always going to say what I think and I'm going to try to quit wearing my opinion on my face... since my facial expressions can't lie (but usually ignorance makes me return to my ways).  I think he and I both thought that would a good thing to try, but it a sense, I would be changing who I am.  I wouldn't be that girl that he met that had something to say about everything.  I would be conforming to other people's expectations and what they thought is appropriate or acceptable rather than just being comfortable with who I really am.  There is a guy, Ryan, on a near-by volunteer fire department who is the same age as Jason and also my Facebook friend.  We joke around and exchange friendly banter almost daily on Facebook.  Jason told me the other night that Ryan had come up to the station and told him, "your wife is a firecracker!"  Then another guy interjected and said "yeah, I always can't wait to read what she's going to say!"  Jason's response was "she's a feisty one."  Well, I'd much rather be thought of as feisty or a firecracker instead of a pushover with no thoughts about anything.  I asked Jason, "isn't that why you love me?  Never a dull moment with me around!"

After last week's episode, of Bethany Ever After, I think she and I were made from the same mold.  She is married to man named Jason.  He is relaxed, goes with the flow, and level headed.  They balance each other out, just like me and Jason.  Because he is like him, and I am like her. 

This was one of their conversations on the last episode:

Jason:  Why is it that when you ask me to do something, I just go.  But, when I ask you to do something, we have to have a conversation about it?

Bethany:  Because, I.AM.A.DIFFICULT.HUMAN.BEING.

As am I.  But, I have never thought that I wasn't.  I have always told Jason that I am difficult, but I appreciate his patience with me.  The good thing is that I realize that I am difficult, Jason realizes it, and I realize that he is patient and understanding.  That's what makes our relationship work.